Today is one of those days where nothing matters. Emptiness consumes my mind and i wear the same cloth again. This day i wash my hands and splash water on my face and run a brush through my hair and this is good enough for me. After all it is only me. I think it is the weather . . .it is so cold after mother nature gave us a few super hot days, she blows cold down and all around us. This makes me depressed as i put out my plants on these hot days and forgot to bring them in and now they are dying.
Why are you depressed . . .Because i Love that person and they do not Love me back. They like me, they are fond of me, but they do not Love me. I need to be Loved like everyone.
But why them? There are Hundreds of people out there, you can Love one of them. That is nice . . .Good for them, i Love someone already. How can you just stop Loving. Real Love never stops.
What do you mean real Love?
- I mean there is i think i Love.
- There is LUST Love.
- there is Only Love if you do or are or say.
- I mean real Love is no matter what.
This is what, i have for them, Love that is real and it hurts and it is warm and it is cold and it is sorrow and it is joyous. But i can not stop and move on. I do not know how to forget them. I need help, i need to go away, i need someone to take me somewhere for a long time where i can’t think of them because i will be interested in other things. Well why can you not do it here by yourself?